random*ness of manu

2011-02-03T12:03:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR!

Have fun collecting ang paos while I'm stuck at home with the Shingles. FML. And being a responsible person, I've decided to stay home so that the little kids out there will not be infected by me. What a saint I am.

Hopefully I can go catch a movie later!

My parents are going on a trip soon. Why are they so darn lucky? :( Well, technically I'll be in Aussie so I can't complain. But my New Zealand trip has to be postponed! Different ok...

There's still a number of people I have yet to meet up with. Sighs. I blame Shingles. Hopefully I can squeeze some time in.

2011-01-13T01:58:00.002+08:00

There I was telling people 2 weeks ago, "Brisbane's really safe, don't need to worry, we won't get affected by the floods."

Fast forward days later, and boom! Brisbane gets hit, and let's say it is not a lovely sight. Thank God Sharmine and Gwen managed to get a flight back to SG in time before the floods hit the Manors badly. I can only imagine how bad Bryan's place will look like when we head back next month.

The worse thing about what is happening now is sitting at home, refreshing FB and the Courier Mail to find out happenings in Brisbane. Is everything alright? Then questions start to come in. What happens to Uni? Will it continue the same time? What happens to the apartments? Where are we going to stay for those who have not found a new place to stay in? When do we fly back? Are our holiday plans cancelled? All questions, but no answers. All we can do is to just sit and wait, and try not to tear our hair out while at it.

I may not have been in Brisbane for a long time. Just a short 5 months and about another 10 more to go. But the impact it has on me is tremendous. It has claim territory in a part of my heart. The small things we did, the small buildings that we pass that seemed so insignificant then, now that they are gone. Washed away with the floods. Yes, the memories will linger on. But the tangible aspect of it is gone. The ferry terminals where we will meet, wait for each other at - Gone, just like that.

School has not been hit badly, but still, it will never be the same again. Brisbane will never be the same again. The news said it will take them up to 2 years to rebuild everything and to be the Brisbane it was before the floods. 2 years seem awfully long, considering that the world is set to end in 2012. Is this a sign? I hope not. :(

2011-01-02T00:47:00.000+08:00

In the year 2010, I guess I have grown up that little bit *does action with finger and thumb*. I would somewhat like to believe that I have changed, just a tiny little bit. And taken away many memorable lessons that I will remember for quite some time. So today, being the New Year, I shall do a walk down memory lane and see how far life has brought me.

My New Year resolution for 2010 was to watch 26 movies, and I have done it! WOOOHOOO! 26 on the dot! 2 days of 3 movie marathons is madness, I know!

I resigned from my first ever full time job, after countless resignation letter, tears, sweat, laughter, happiness, anger and every possible emotion you could think of, I had experience it all there. I would say it was a memorable experience as it really opened up my eyes to a lot of things. People said I have changed since I started working there as I was no longer the naive little girl they thought I was when I first joined. Hello, I was just 19 going onto 20 then. I guess maybe I have become a bit bitchier, but it gets things done, or so I would like to believe. I have met the most amazing people I could have ever met in my life, the ones who have taught me great life lessons, like believing in myself, family and most importantly, love. And meeting Mambo Kitty Cat, Hatta Teo!

It was not long before I started working at Gusttimo, and met another bunch of amazing people that I will call my friends for life. Chingmay, Jiayi, Dixon, Eeler, Rendy, Alvin, MJ, and JJ. Despite our age differences, the fact that we can all get along with each other like one big happy family, makes it all worthwhile. How we have our crazy work days, laughing and screaming at each other, our insane jokes that makes no sense sometimes. And do not forget our drinking sessions. How we can finish off 8 bottles in one night. I miss those days man. How the May babies had the Waterfall and Hurricane. O to the M to the G. I will invite all of you to my wedding! I’m being completely serious. You guys added so many colours into my very colourful world, and I am really grateful for that. Group hugs!

Of course, there are the full-timers in my life as well. CHINA GANG – Mellissa, Kah Wee, Jasmine, Ting Ting, Mike and Kimberly. Our poker and monopoly nights, shhh later the bird wake up jokes, our laughter, damn sadistic stories that seem so funny after telling each other. Birthday celebrations, club nights and many other stuff that I might have missed out. I would never ever trade it for anything in the world.

The LRMers – Warren, Shawne, Linus, Tai Hong, Lena, and Shane. The dinners and lunches and movie dates. How we can sit and laugh life away. Club and drinks. Memories of those times will be etched in my mind.

Girlfriends – Qiu Rui, who bought me Koi Bubble Tea. I LOVE YOU HUBBY! HAHAHA thanks for being there to listen to me rant about stuff while I was over in Brisbane. Laura, my milo peng buddy, but we haven’t gone for milo peng in such a long while. The little texts to let me know that you’re there for me, and I really appreciate it.

SMITHS – Karolyn, Chinyi, Yuenteck, Sean, Joel Tian, Jacquelyn, Kevin. We may not meet that often, but each time is simply awesome. Watching movies, talking, hanging out (actually I was not there for a lot of birthdays! Sorry!), drinking. You guys have been with me since secondary school and I really treasure each one of you.

And there was the planning of my 21^st birthday party. Dinner and Butter Factory. I will never forget how UGLY I looked going to Butter Factory to make the payment. Black pants and a sweaty white shirt, holding two HUGE boxes of chocolates. I guess in the end, everything went well. And I am officially a happy 21 year old kid.

Naturally, after all the partying, one always has to pack up and leave, and off to Australia! I did not go alone. I had my GFL Huiling with me, which was just awesome. How we can laugh about random stuff, your run/my stroll along the river, shopping trips, “cooking” lessons, school projects and holidays. Love you deep deep!

And there is the Brisbane gang of people. Bryan, Kelvin Heng, Gwen, Amanda, Weilun, Sharmine, Kiat Beng, Lincoln, Kuo Quan and Shawn Moomoo. Going to Gold Coast, chilling out, celebrating each other’s birthdays, dinners. But why aren’t we meeting up in SG???!!!!

Don’t forget the Melbourne people! Lisa, Lina, Maggie, Iggy, Li Ann, Steven, Wilson, Jack, Kath, Carrie. You guys just simply kick ass man. To the Mahs, thank you for putting up with me at your lovely home and bringing me around, showing me the night life of Melbourne that makes me want to just live there. But I know somehow, Brisbane is a better choice for me.

I’m feeling home sick for Brisbane! I think I’m mad!

And last of all, my family. The most awesome people in the whole wide world – my parents and my brother. Awwwww. They have been super understanding, sending me all the waaaaay to Aussie, giving me all the freedom one could ever ask for, being my ATM, among other stuff. Ed has been super cool, constantly entertaining me with stories and jokes even though we never skype, only MSN like once every 2 weeks. But it’s quality over quantity.

This year, I feel that I have become a different person. Like I have become more tolerant somehow, except to certain KIDS. Yet, there are times I have been misunderstood, but I’m cool with it. My temper has toned down, but I’m still as direct as ever or maybe even more. I’m still me, but in a cool new packaging! I have seen different sides of people, my perception has been changed ten million times, shit happens, but I am alive. And am totally kicking ass! I know I can’t please everyone, that everyone is different. If they can’t accept it, *waves bye*.

New year resolution! I gave a lot of thought to this, but I have not come up with any. I guess I would like to maintain my GPA or improve it if possible. Graduate by the end of the year. Be a happier person overall, stop being some emo shit at times. Stay away from guys who constantly have girls around them. Best if I can avoid all physical contact – SHIT I’M GONNA BECOME A NUN!!!

With that, I end this New Year Resolution piece. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011, may the new year be a prosperous and fulfilling year for you.

2010-12-31T16:29:00.002+08:00

Have I really been that busy that I have not blogged for one month?

Unbelievable. Oh wells.

Maybe I really have been busy. I mean I have been meeting up with friends, and many more of them to meet up with. Partying. Travelling. Zomggg so tiring man. And to think I wanna get a job. Hmmm should I? I do need the cash. HAHAHA

Well, it's the final day of 2010. Which means it's time to relook at my past year's resolutions and create some new ones. I'll try doing a SMART one, but I know I will fail at that. HAHA stay tuned then for the resolutions.

P.S. On another note, to my lovely and wonderful friends out there who are having their individual problems, take it easy. It's gonna be a brand new year, and things will work out fine. I'm sure of it. :)

2010-11-25T13:33:00.002+08:00

Me: Mum, I have a little surprise for you.
Mum: Whatttt? You pregnant ar?!
Me: WHAAAAT?! WAH LAU EH PLSSSS!

Mum's are just classic lah.

I broke my nail, sians. But it's repaired, thank god for gel extensions.

Melbourne is fricking awesome! I'm actually considering a credit transfer. Yesss, I'm thaaaat crazy.

Having some good old family loving, and it's just the best feeling in the world.

Now we're chilling at home, with drinks in hand and surfing fb. Life is this good.

2010-11-19T08:56:00.002+08:00

I think I need a change of environment which is what is going to happen soon.

I need to be with my happy pills who will never sway, and who will constantly put me on a high, with or without alcohol.

I think I just need some good old family love, which is always the best.

2010-11-13T13:09:00.003+08:00

HRM is boring like anything. I've given up writing notes for the timebeing.

And I hate staying at home to study. Grrrr too many distractions around here.

Did my planning for my modules, and I'm happy with my choices.

Be careful what you wish for.

2010-11-10T12:13:00.003+08:00

A part of me wants to go dig a hole and bury myself it in, never to come out.

And seriously, some people can be so fake. Hurrr.

2010-11-08T11:32:00.001+08:00

I think it's damn cute how my mum thinks sometimes.

She can ask me "ehh you go that Mt Cootha just to see and go home? Nothing else?"

Of course got nothing else luhhh... Maybe she thinks I'm doing something I shouldn't be doing. HAHAHA cute to the maxxxx lahh.

But then again, all mums are like that right?

2010-11-06T20:36:00.002+08:00

Cos he makes me smile like a ding dong bat.

He gives me this insane sugar rush, leave me breathless and my heart pounding like there's no tomorrow.

Ever so gentle.

And school nights have never been this great.

2010-10-24T12:03:00.000+08:00

Love. Truth. Honesty.

What more do you need?

2010-10-23T12:48:00.003+08:00

I am officially impressed.

By myself for spending $30 buying deep heat stuff. I think I am growing old.

Ok, the insects here are creeping the life out of me. This HUGEEEEE butterfly flew passed the window and I got a shock. Ok, that sounded damn loser.

I am extremely refreshed, since I slept like the whole day yesterday, due to my back ache. And had 10 hours of sleep. :D I love sleep.

Back to work! After wasting a day. HAHA

P.S. How I Met Your Mother rocks big time!

2010-10-09T19:46:00.003+08:00

As egoistic as I am.
As materialistic as I am.

Here's the new list for potential boyfriends!

1. MUST OWN A BB! Comeon, you can't deny the fact that a Blackberry just kicks Apple's ass. BBM is simply the best. Well, BB can talk to Apple too, using Whatsapp but that is just too laggy. BB FTW~

2. MUST DRIVE A CAR, and have access to one. I think I've become more spoilt since I'm in Aussie because a car is just the most convenient vehicle in the whole wide world. Ok, actually I was spoilt since Capella. But still... And given how cheap the cars are over here in Aussie, why not take the chance to own one. Somewhat an achievement for me! Yay! So yessss, CAR = IMPORTANT

3. After being so miserable and cooking for these few months, he NEEDS TO BRING ME OUT TO EAT. Not that I'm being a pig or anything, but I seriously need to eat out, have someone serving me, cooking the food for me. Well, or HE CAN COOK FOR ME, also perfect. He has to wash too.

4. DO SILLY, ROMANTIC THINGS, like.. I'm not gonna explain this, use your imagination. *does spongebob squarepants movement*

5. DOES NOT MIND THAT I COMPLETELY BEHAVE LIKE A KID AT TIMES *ahem, all the time*. Like watching SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS, OGGY AND THE COCKROACHES, and laughing like a ding dong bell. Seriously, cartoons just cheer me up!

6. DOES NOT MIND THAT I DRINK AND CLUB. Well I've toned down, but who knows what will happen when I'm back in Singapore with all my partyyyy people!

Okay, totally materialistic, but I don't care. Well, there is a candidate, he's always been there. SIAN WHY MUST HE GO ******* and study?! :( And I can't possibly ask his friend "eh intro me formally to him lehhh, I really have the hots for him". Reeks desperation completely.

Taaa!

P.S. To add on to the list - HE MUST BUY ME FLOWERS! Make a good impression on me please. HAHAHHA

2010-10-08T10:21:00.001+08:00

It's days like these that I just wish I was home. Mum will being me a hot cup of milo and some porridge, and I can just stay in bed the whole day.

It hurts somehow, but I'll get over it.

2010-10-07T21:12:00.001+08:00

I see the date at the bottom of my laptop screen and it shows me 07102010.

7 months. Wow, the longest relationship I've had so far.

2010-10-05T23:10:00.003+08:00

At this point in time, the da nv ren in me, doesn't want to be the da nv ren anymore.

I just want to be pampered and taken care of. Very difficult meh?

I've tried changing a little bit of me, and I guess that changed my thinking as well. I don't know if that's good or bad. It's like my expectations just changed overnight.

I believe somehow, when you're overseas and being exposed to a variety of lifestyles, thinkings, attitudes and relationships, it moulds your thinking and beliefs. Everyone wants to be the best, they always follow a role model. Even in their relationships. And I'm lost in mine, and I don't know what's best for anyone.

I guess, I'm still waiting for an answer.

2010-10-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

At a complete loss.

Thank you SB. :)

2010-10-02T22:32:00.002+08:00

I don't know why.

But everytime I think about Mr Cigar, it brings a smile to my face. Especially in my down moments.

Good or bad?

Every relationship has its ups and downs. I'm hoping what I'm feeling now is just the down part. Huiling says I'm just angry, which is why I numb out everything else. Sometimes I wonder if it's because I'm too demanding at times.

2010-09-19T13:37:00.001+08:00

5 years since this was posted!

200 things to do
01. bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. swam with wild dolphins
03.climbed a mountain
04. taken a ferrari for a test drive
05. been inside the great pyramid
06. held a tarantula
07. taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. said 'I love you' and meant it
09.hugged a tree
10. done a striptease
11. bungee jumped
12. visited paris
13. watched a lightning storm at sea
14. stayed up all night long and watch the sun rise
15. seen the northern lights
16. gone to a huge sports game
17. walked the stairs to the top of leaning tower of pisa
18. grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. touched an iceberg
20. slept under the stars
21. changed a baby's diaper
22. taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. watched a meteor shower
24. gotten drunk on champagne
25. given more than you can afford to charity
26. looked up the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts (for a moment)
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a (toy) house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a cheque
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ... more than once? - More than thrice?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a seizure
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ...
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
197. Been a DJ
198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199. Written your own role playing game
200. Been arrested

SHIT! Not much changes. HAHAHHA

2010-09-08T17:00:00.002+08:00

One of the best guys I have known in my life - David Chang.

He's the best lahh. Always giving me advice for everything, being there for me when I really needed a friend, working with me. What will my life be if I haven't met him?

I'm looking forward to December and spending some long lost quality time with him. I owe him that much.

The holiday plans are looking good! :)

2010-08-15T16:50:00.002+08:00

I miss the way he puts his arms around me.
The way our hands fit together.
The way he looks at me, like I'm the only one.
Our hugs and kisses.
The security.
The long talks.
The sweet sms-es.

Isn't love just so fantastic?

I love you baby! And miss you even more.

2010-08-14T00:17:00.003+08:00

To make things loud and clear,

I'm not gonna do anything that's gonna fuck up my relationship.
It hasn't been easy to get to where we are right now.
It's not gonna be easy.
But we're making it work.

I might joke about relationship stuff.
But deep down inside, I'm really serious about it.

We're at the midpoint right now. Well, almost.
5 months.
I believe in him, and I believe in us.

And I'm not ready to let go.

2010-08-10T20:14:00.001+08:00

And I wonder...

Am I still in a relationship?

2010-06-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

Stop adding more stress to my life.

It's getting ridiculous.

2010-06-21T12:59:00.003+08:00

I don't know why I'm getting a little affected by small issues. Or maybe I have a right to be affected.

Whoever said long distance was gonna be easy? It doesn't help when the other half is living in his own world. Sighs.

I don't know why but I have a feeling that I will end up cheating or finding someone else. I shall stop thinking about it!
Today is a day to stay at home.

2010-05-23T19:32:00.002+08:00

You know, I thought as a friend you would understand situations and be happy for me.

But it's pretty tiring, after hearing you put down all the possible guys in my life.

FML?

2010-05-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

What if I said I miss the craziness and our spontaneous acts?

But I guess I wouldn't matter anymore.

Things were of the past, I can't change things. It's my loss, indirectly.

Things I will never say. But you're still the best!

2010-05-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

Why is it that I'm getting affected by minor stuff that I shouldn't be bothered with?

I thought it was over.

2010-05-15T20:55:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!

21! I feel old.

Celebrated with the Gusttimo people last night.

Waterfall, Hurricane, some shot. OMFG.

HAHA but I survived the night. Except for the parts where I puked. Not good at all. Oopsyyy!

I watched Robin Hood on my actual day with the boyyyy. NICE! Go watch it! :)

*Sometimes I wonder, how would life be if I was in the same class as Alvin, Eeler, Rendy, Shaughn, JJ and Dixon. Imgaine the drama!

2010-05-12T01:06:00.000+08:00

I have so much to say, but I don't wish to hurt anyone.

Sighs.

Option or priority?

2010-05-02T18:51:00.002+08:00

Some people ought to know their limits when it comes to certain issues. Not gonna name names here. But just good to know yea?

Oh and I think I'm falling sick. How nice...

Happy advance birthday to Mervyn! Hope you enjoyed the little surprise. Mahjong-ed at Russell's place, and stayover at Dom's house.

Birthday celebration is in 6 days time. I can do this!

2010-04-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

So, I stay over at my bf's place, and more stuff will happen, versus if he was to stay over at my place.

Where's the logic in this?

Aiyah if things happened, it can happen anytime anywhere what.

2010-04-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

With 3 weeks left to go, I'm still stuck at the guest list and everything else.

Only the venue, cake and menu has been settled.

How now brown cow?

I was close to tears while on the phone with Dom just now over the bloody party. You could literally hear my voice cracking up. I just really want to get this over and done with.

Wah lau, a party at House Dempsey would have been much more easier and less complicated to begin with.

I shall get thru this, hopefully without snapping at everyone around me. So in advance, I apologise if I do happen to snap to anyone right now and over small little things. I really hope that you understand I'm under a lot of nonsensical pressure.

I shall head to bed and stop rambling on about this. And pray that it's all due to my PMS.

2010-04-02T00:06:00.002+08:00

Few posts for today.

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It's tough to not judge books by the cover. I'm trying to change that, but sometimes, it's the whole persona, the way that person brings himself/herself around. First impressions do count though.

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What I want, may not be what you want. And I got really emomomo today. I didn't like how it made me feel. Bloodshot eyes out of the shower pretty much sums up how I feel. Sometimes I wonder, do you ever care about what I feel? About what I want? Was that even part of my plan? And when I raise up the issue, you say that I'm complacent, I'm ungrateful etc. But I didn't even want things to be like this.

When I want something done a certain way, I get a million and one reasons why it should not go that way, instead of that one simple nod to say yes, it's a good idea. In the end, it all boils down to, who is the one that has to deal with all the stress to get everything perfect? And is this what I really want?

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2010-03-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

And I love you too.

2010-03-24T00:38:00.004+08:00

I believe I'm happier than before.

Great friends.
Nice working environment.
Sweet guy.

Life is good, since I left CS! I think CS and I are cursed to be working together!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUILING!

My beloved GFL! :) I hope you have a wonderful day, working, and spending time with Mer Mer. Thank you for being ever so accommodating to my nonsense and what nots. And I better not say too much la, later Mer say "Why Manu must say all this?" :p

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Weekend was spent at Huiling's party. Supper Club. Pictures are up on facebook.

This weekend is Dom's chalet. Woots! Drinks, food, music, games, surprises.

I just took a spin with the car to go pick Eddy up. So I have completely lost my thoughts.

Rah sleep time! :) Morning shift the whole week!

2010-03-19T00:47:00.002+08:00

Amazing how fast news travels.

I like it how we can spend the hours talking on the phone like no one's business. Wishful thinking, but I wish it doesn't have to change.

Huiling's party in one day. WOOTS! :)

2010-03-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

Thank you for the laughs tonight.

And the HTHT.

:)

Random note, I LOVE MY FIREFOX SPONGEBOB THEME! :D

2010-03-08T13:58:00.001+08:00

The things people say to boost their ego.

I'm very tired of the games.

2010-03-07T01:33:00.002+08:00

There's no time for a confession than now.

We shall see what tomorrow brings for me.

2010-03-05T00:09:00.001+08:00

My mum is the cutest.

Mum : Eh GUY A got hold your hand not?
Me : Uhhh yeah...
Mum : Got electricity not?!
Me : WTH!
Mum : Then GUY B got hold your hand not?
Me : MOTHER, what's wrong with youuu!

Fa dian = electricity

How adorable.

2010-03-03T13:03:00.001+08:00

Shoot me in the head man.

Allow me to vomit blood.

It's amazing how low you can scoop.

2010-02-27T17:03:00.000+08:00

And so, as I was walking to the MRT station, I texted someone who replied rather promptly.. And upon reading the reply, I started smiling like a crazy woman. This little boy happened to walk pass, saw my expression and started smiling like me.

So adorable!

And about the text? It's the little small gestures that shows people care. That it's worth another chance in life. That feelings are genuine and very very much alive.

*hugssss*

2010-02-27T12:42:00.000+08:00

Planning for my next holiday = WOOOOOSH!

2010-02-26T15:31:00.000+08:00

Back from Vietnam!

With a twist in the drama.

2010-02-20T15:10:00.000+08:00

Dear Manuela Siya Forster, below are your Personality Tests result:

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are down-to-earth
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : People like you because you are so straightforward
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like serious
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Smart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Determined people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't judge a book by its cover
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship

The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like to flirt
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Behave seductively
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The opposite sex finds this very attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You listen to your own instincts
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Tend to follow your heart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So you will probably end up with an unusual job

The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You need to choose something
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Go for it to be happy
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Achieve success

How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Nothing will stop you from trying

What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are concerned about your image
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The way others see you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : It's time for you to believe in who you are
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Not what you wear

2010-02-20T15:07:00.000+08:00

Guess who's back in the game?

2010-02-19T03:10:00.001+08:00

1, 2, 3, 4
Oh my love, it's you that I dream of
Oh my love, since that day
Somewhere in my heart, I'm always
Dancing with you in
The summer rain

Doesn't matter what I do now
Doesn't matter what I say
Somewhere in my heart, I'm always
Dancing with you in
The summer rain

Best Mambo song ever.

New gossips are always fun.

Let's take a walk down memory lane and see where this leads us to.

2010-02-13T21:39:00.002+08:00

Guy A vs Guy B

Guy A is sensitive, caring, gentlemanly, stable.

Guy B is unpredictable, full of chaos.

Both equally the type of guy you like. Who will you choose?

Consider the fact that you want something of a long term commitment.

2010-02-09T01:09:00.002+08:00

Busy times!

I've left Capella Singapore *gasps*

I worked for Changi Air Show and got really burnt. I'm suffering right now, enough of the sniggers.

Still have time to go club! HAHA! And slept 2 hours before doing the Air Show again!

Still can go to Intercontinental and have buffet dinner. Surprises are fun.

I completely rock man! Sleepless in Singapore. Guess all the hard "training" has paid off!

Met up with the bbbf David today! Thank you for the surprise visit to town! And for paying for my ice cream and fries!

Random note - I have yet to receive a truly memorable and unforgettable birthday present/surprise/celebration.

2010-02-01T02:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, life makes you wonder.

A complete stranger, upon knowing I'm going to Australia to study, said this to me, "Congratulations!" in a really sincere way.

Strangers do it.

So what happened to friends?

2010-01-25T12:48:00.000+08:00

On this day of your life, Manuela, we believe God wants you to know ... that a successful relationship requires falling in love many times, always with the same person.

Always with the same person, but deeper and deeper every time. Each time on a whole new level you together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew. There is no limit to the beauty of your beloved. If you think you've reached the end, stop generalizing.

OMFG.FML.

2010-01-23T22:45:00.001+08:00

We like to party party, we came to lose control.

Phuture-d. :)

Movie-d. :)

Great off days! :)

What if?

2010-01-21T02:16:00.002+08:00

Ok, time for a happy happy post!

Today was a good day at work! :) I kept smiling like a babaloo!

I guess it was all about the guests who made the difference. Just talking to them really made my day. Seeing how keen they were about Capella, and how much they wanted to know about the hotel. I think I should go be a guest relations person! Everyday just stand there and talk. HAHA! But what has been done, has been done.

Because of today, and a bit from last night, I was tempted to do something really stupid. But I knew that if I did that, I'll look like a complete fool. Twice was enough. This is the third time and I'm pretty sure my mind has been made up.

As tempted as I am, the decision is final.

What decision? This will be shared on 31st Jan. Provided I'm not too drunk/tipsy/smelly to share with everyone.

Ok, major headache, time to sleep! It has been a long day and cramps certainly do not help it.

OUTZ!

2010-01-20T01:34:00.002+08:00

Wah biang eh, really damn speechless now lah.

Nothing else to say already.

*I bet Huiling is shaking her head reading this :P*

Aiyah, don't know, don't care. Hurrrrr.

Chinyiiiiii, major HTHT session on Saturday ok? I bet you'll most probably smack the hell out of me man.

Actually, I don't even know how I'm feeling. After bbm-ing gfl Huiling in the afternoon, I felt lighter. Like a load has been lifted off me. And I seriously feel better right now. It's time for a bigger challenge in life!

Either way, I'm ok now. :)

2010-01-19T03:13:00.000+08:00

Nothing left to say.

Still trying to figure out why it's affecting me so badly.

2010-01-19T01:49:00.002+08:00

& I will choose to fade silently.

It is impossible. I have no idea why it's eating me up so badly.

:(

I want to go sing emo k box songs.

2010-01-15T02:14:00.001+08:00

Somehow, I feel like I'm losing this race.

I'm emo, again. Just let me be.

2010-01-13T02:03:00.003+08:00

My new year resolution!

Naturally, it must be SMART, otherwise it won't really happen.

1. Watch 26 movies by the end of this year, which is about one movie every 2 weeks. SO DATE ME OUT!

2. To go on taitai dates with Tan Huiling every month, to a different atas restaurant to try out the cuisine and service.

3. To be more serious in certain issues, like knowing when to be firm and all. And maybe in a sense, a PROPER relationship.

That's my resolutions for year 2010. Let's see how it goes. LOL!

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After some emo thinking and talking, I think I've found a really nice guy. But, we shall see.

And bimbo me, forgot when my parents were coming back from Phillippines, and I told my brother, "Tuesday!"

Well, apparently, they're not home yet. So much for rushing through with all the house work. HAHA

I need a part time job, people please recommend me, thanks!

2010-01-04T02:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

42 hours of wearing my contact lens.

Driving home at 3am, waking up at 9am.

Collapsing on the bed out of exhaustion.

Sleeping on the sofa at Manor 7.

Late night dips in the swimming pool.

Champagne to go along with that.

Toasts here and there.

Club music to top the night off.

Memorable New Years Eve working, I have to say. It was so much like a staff party. Photos are on FB. Not that many cos my camera's battery was screwed up. Zzzz.

I'm off to bed now, shagged is the word.

2009-12-22T01:01:00.003+08:00

DAMN STEAM.

Random note, my name is pronounced as "mah noo EH lah". LOL!

Whatever.

I found Mr Cigar. OMG STEAM.

KL next month with Eddy! Eddy you die.

Christmas shopping is done, I have this sense of relief! I bought myself a pretty watch *grins*

I should be sleeping soon, but I can't do that, until I've done what I'm suppose to do. All thanks to Qiu Rui and the FB application "God wants you to know". Zzzzz!

2009-12-07T01:48:00.002+08:00

Back from KL, and off to BALI in a few hours time!

*squeals in delight and excitement*

I really can't wait. My well deserved trip.

Boon Lay Nasi Lemak with Hatta when I got back. It was good seeing him after god knows how many months. HAHA! And with his silly nonsense and my crazy driving. And me with my crazy nonsense of going to watch New Moon in the middle of the night.

Just realised that there's a lot of movies I wanna watch. Like New Moon, Sherlock Homes. People, DATE ME! If I can make the time. And Mambo nights are back again! Woots!

Zoukout soon! :D

2009-11-25T21:55:00.001+08:00

Pondering on some issues.

Sometimes I wonder why aren't parents supportive of their children. No, this isn't an attack on my parents, cos they are 98% of the time really supportive of me and my stupid nonsense.

Aiyah, forgot what I wanted to type. :P Too much phone convos!

2009-11-24T12:42:00.003+08:00

From today onwards, I shall introduce myself as "Hi, I'm the server here."

Fancy attitudes ain't gonna work for me. No decent courtesy, why should I bother? Let's see how it goes.

Work = :(

2009-11-21T02:37:00.003+08:00

I think,

Both of us want something more, but we're just too afraid of saying it.

Or maybe, once again, I'm looking at the wrong side of life.

2009-11-19T01:29:00.002+08:00

Enter Miss P into the scene. Interesting to see how she's mingling around and "winning" everyone's attention, except B&S. Not forgetting the scandals she's bringing with her.

What goes around, comes around. Be careful what you wish for, cos you just might get it. And maybe be a little bit more honest.

Next up, B&S taking a road trip to KL and a flight to Bali. How will it turn out for them?

2009-11-18T01:45:00.000+08:00

Why do some people still want to deny the truth when the truth is already out there?

Food for thought.

iPhone or BlackBerry??

2009-11-05T13:06:00.002+08:00

It has been a while. Busy as a bee.

Living the high life. Entertainment at it's very best.

Spotted at Supper Club last week, the whole gang of gossip girls were there. Including some flashbacks from the past.

Scandals amidst the lives, but who really cares about the truth? Everyone loves a gossip or two.

Upcoming, B & S going for their GFL weekly date. Will V be there? That's for me to know and for you to find out.

* Don't you just love gossip girls? ;)

2009-10-05T12:36:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, the most unexpected things happen.
Sometimes, life makes you question, IS THIS WORTH IT?
Sometimes, you just want to bail out.

Do you? Are you able to?

I don't like the position I am in right now. This, of course, can't be compared to others. But the whole point is that I just hate it. Holding back the tears everyday. Endless advices are coming in, but how much longer can I survive on those advices before I snap? I mean, I'm only human too.

I let go of so much, I'm wondering if it's worth it. People say "if they are really your friends, they will understand." How much longer can your friends understand why you keep ditching them, why you constantly have no time for them? Unless they are working in the same trade as you, otherwise forget it.

I yearn to get away, which is why I keep frequenting clubs. Dance the night away, drink til my liver goes to rehab, meet up with the people who are there. There have been times I wished that ALL my close friends and buddies were into clubbing like me. Then I can always call them out and they will be there. No need for additional gatherings. But then again, they are they, and I don't really want to change a thing about them.

I need a getaway fast! Or as I told Kah Wee, I shall just leave and party my life out for one month! HAHA I'm still gonna get paid for it. Aiyah, bu dong la. Whatever happens, happens.

2009-10-05T03:36:00.002+08:00

MUST WATCH MANNNN!

YOUTUBE

I swear, this guy is the bomb! Although he ruined Poker Face, but he seriously made my night, along with all the bitchings! :P Eugene Tan! HAHA!

3.37am! I'm still awake, oh screw my sleep cycle.

Offers are tempting me. Hmm, what offers? It's for me to know, and for you to find out! ;)

I miss Vietnam days. Sanya days. Hong Kong days. Holidays! Where are they now? No where to be seen. Can go Zouk already happy!

WHO'S UP FOR TRIPS TO BALI / PHUKET / BANGKOK? Let me knowwwwww!!! :D At the rate I'm working, I have about 3 weeks to clear!!

2009-09-25T16:00:00.002+08:00

TGIF!!!

I've never been happier for my off day. Maybe because I've been working 8 days in a row. With today being my only off day. :( Loads of OILs to claim. But when can I have them?

Dim sum at Bugis the other night with the bbbf. :) I'm happy we met up, although I had to wait 3 hours for him. Zzz. But it was worth the wait, listening to his silly stories, his insane yet realistic advice.

Meeting up with Huiling has become a weekly routine. Girlfriend for life lahhh. :)

I want ice cream, pouts*

Dinner tonight at Timbre. :)

Lusting over Mr Cigar :D

Life is just that boring. :(

2009-09-19T03:03:00.002+08:00

I want to have a proper ****.

Pouts*

Life is complicated. Life is BUSY.

I'm looking forward to my annual leave although it's 2 months away! HOLIDAY ANYONE???

I'm grateful to have friends who can be bothered to call me at 3am FROM SWITZERLAND! I feel so loved. Although I didn't answer the phone cos I was in the shower. But the fact is that he cared enough to call me. To want to hear things out.

I know, I know, I promised not to cry. Very difficult lah!

Ultimate breakdown at work the other night. :(

I don't like how work makes me become. So withdrawn and emotional. I WILL GET THRU THIS. I hope.

I wish I was still a kid back in school with no responsibilities and what nots. Guess it's time to grow up.

Maybe I should make a trip to outerspace? Although I think it'll be a failed attempt once again. Hurrr.

2009-08-30T03:28:00.002+08:00

I wanna take the car out for a spin.
Buy ice cream.
Stop the car at some random place.
Chill out, relax, enjoy the serenity.
Maybe have some friends with me.
To chat the night away.
Laugh until we get high.
And make pacts like there's no tomorrows.

To run away from the problems.
And just get some alone time.
And spend some quality time with the people who matter.

I guess I just miss the old times.

Maybe I do regret taking this path right now.
Yet I don't.
Cos I've seen who really cares about me.
Who have my interest at heart.

To my lovelies, the Smiths.
I feel bad constantly ditching you guys.
But I promise I'll try to make it up to you.
I Love You, Beth Cooper this weekend? :D

To my lessiiiieeee.
See you every week.
Be it supper or dinner or shopping.
I really want us to be roommates.
We shall see how it goes on Wednesday yeah?

To bbbf.
I know I haven't seen you in ages.
Busy luh.
You also don't want to meet me for dinner.
Thanks for still sticking by me.
Still the best ok?

To the rest.
I'm getting tired.
Another time ok?

I shall get the car soon and head to Dempsey.
Who's up for it? :D

2009-08-26T01:04:00.001+08:00

WAH!

FB Application.

On this day of your life, Manuela, we believe God wants you to know...
... that every relationship rests on three legs: accepting, supporting and challenging.

That's really it, isn't it? You want your relationships to be grounded on accepting each other as you are. On supporting each other through the inevitable ups and downs. On challenging each other to become more, to grow, to flourish. Which one of these is the more difficult one for you, and how are you going to practice it in the next 24 hours?

Ehh hello, God, I don't have any boyfriend/relationship. Then how? I guess it's just for the future right? Such small stuff just crack me up!

Suntanning was great today! Totally roasted, and it feels so good! :D

Mambo tmr! Who's up for it?!!!

2009-08-19T00:12:00.002+08:00

The truth & nothing but the truth

Because I'm gonna get tired of saying it. So, since people love this space so much, I guess it's the easiest way to air things out, besides FB. FB is waaaay too public already. I hate to do this, but yeah...

Dom & I aren't seeing each other anymore, due to indifference in thinking.

It wasn't any easy decision, on my part, but somethings just have to end.

If I had a chance to turn back time, I would still do what I had done. Because that really showed me how much I meant to you.

I mean, you forgot about something so "significant". Well, it was to me. But you forgot.

Sometimes I do wonder whether things would be different. But then, I snap myself out of it, because I'm so over it.

Yes, I do miss you. Or should I say, I miss your presence in my life. I miss having someone there to care. Someone who is more than a friend. I miss having someone to hug, to cuddle up to, to hold hands with, etc etc.

But I tell myself, I will find someone else. Someone who will understand my character, someone who will care for me, someone better than you. Someone who won't leave me to be the spokesperson and who will be open about everything between us.

Time and time again, I have to be the one who tells people what is going on. What's wrong with telling people on your part? But that is another thing.

If I had the chance, will I see you again? My answer is No. Not even a maybe. If I was asked this question like earlier, I would say maybe. Now, it's a No. Because you've hurt me enough. And I don't want to go through that again.

And I've made a "promise" to stop crying so much. Ok, well I haven't cried in a while, but you get my drift.

So in a way, this is my final goodbye to you. Or officially, my final goodbye. Although I said it a long time ago.

Good night world.

2009-08-17T01:29:00.000+08:00

I've decided on something really extreme. Next month's pay will be going to that. :)

&& I made a pact with Huiling that we will each get a boyfriend by the end of 2009!!

HAHAHA

2009-08-08T03:06:00.000+08:00

2 days.

2 days to go to 10 August.

I do question myself why I even said that date. I somehow think that you have forgotten about it. But we shall see.

The ~~goodbye~~ letter is done. I've just yet to send it.

Zhen de zhen de hen nan.

Is it that difficult to just have someone there when you need someone? Is it that difficult to see someone on a occasional basis without a commitment?

Questions yet no answers.

I miss your presence in my life.

2009-08-03T11:33:00.000+08:00

On a FB application today.

On this day of your life, Manuela, we believe God wants you to know...
... that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes.

Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. You are loved only when you feel loved. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for?

WHO MAKES MY HEART SOAR NOW?
Is non-existent.

Quite sad huh?

David Cook's Come Back To Me kicks ass! Song for the month!

2009-08-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

Apparently, showing concern is a crime.

Ugh. Changes in progress.

2009-07-27T12:54:00.000+08:00

Met up with the guys yesterday. Come to think of it, it was ALL guys.

Movied with Sean and Chinyi at MS. Public Enemies. I felt the front was too draggy, and the ending too short. I wanted more drama with the girl!

Then off to Thomson stretch for dinner with Bobo Kah Wee. & Ice Kimo after that.

And then it was back to Plaza Sing for another movie with Sean, Chinyi and Yuenteck. Fighting. Quite a lame show man. I don't advice people to watch it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINYI! :D

And as I was going home, I was deleting messages in my phone and looking at my saved messages. All of it was from you. :( There was at least one for every month, about one every week. My last saved message from you? 1st July. Almost a month away. :(

And there was this message that I will always look at and smile and think of you.

"Miracle Woman. You are to me. Hehe. :)"

And your reason was just the cutest.

I really want to go back to those times. If only I had been more patient, more understanding.

You know, I saw this advertisement on some investment exhibition at Suntec. And I wanted to text you the details and all. Then I remembered, I'm not suppose to do that.

Aiyah, I need a getaway lahh.

2009-07-24T12:06:00.002+08:00

Because everything has ended. It's over.

I'm upset, yes. But he has his reasons.

August 10. Then I will move on. For now, I don't because everything just feels so right even without a status.

My only regret? Not kissing you goodbye the other evening.

2009-07-16T23:20:00.002+08:00

FUCK YOU.

I seriously mean it.

2 weeks of this "ignorance". FUCK.

I had enough, really.

I don't want to hear the word "sorry". I hate this word, in the whole dictionary, in every single language that ever existed in this world.

I'm trying to be understanding here. I know you're busy. I'm busy too. But it seems like you don't even care anymore. If you're busy in the evening, JUST FUCKING SAY THAT YOU ARE BUSY. I WILL UNDERSTAND.

And once again, I'm tearing as I'm typing this. I hate to do this, typing it all out for "public eyes" to see. But it's the only way I can get my point across without hurting you. And the only way for me to get everything out of my system and hope that everything will be proper tomorrow.

The tears just keep coming. I'm really really hurt by this. I'm a girl, for fuck sake! And considering the fact that you never did this before, it's different. It is as though you are a completely different person from when I first knew you.

IF YOU WANT TO END THINGS, DO IT LIKE A MAN.

I can take it.

UGH, FUCK!

*Don't bother to tag anything on my board. I appreciate the concern, but I don't really "need" concern for now.*

2009-07-13T12:52:00.000+08:00

Oh, forgot to add this in.

Manu: Lau ma, I'm coming home for dinner.

Mum: Orh, with who?

Manu: Ehh, myself? Who are you expecting?

Mum: I don't know, you have a lot of friends.

Like zzz.

2009-07-13T12:45:00.002+08:00

And so it has been work.

Clubbing on Saturday at Phuture. :D

Sunday was out with Dom in town. I don't get this. WHY WHY WHY! Don't people say hi when they see you? But rather message you on FB saying "I think I saw you. Was it you?" Or something along this line.

So enlighten me.

I'm still deciding what to do next weekend. I love this week's schedule. I want more of it! HAHA

But I have no idea why, I'm just so tired recently, despite of how much sleep I'm getting.

2009-07-05T02:36:00.002+08:00

And so, I'm listening to bbbf David, and am leaving you alone.

I'm serious.

Call me when you're ready.

It hurts a lot. It isn't easy for me when you don't want to share things with me. But that's all I can do. I'll just silently wait here til you get over your issues.

Aiyah, don't know what's going on lah.

A part of me wishes you ARE here to tell me everything.

Rip my heart out & leave it here to bleed

2009-07-04T13:23:00.002+08:00

Because people have been saying I never blog. SO HERE IT IS, HAPPY NOT??!!

I have no idea what's going on this week. It's a blur.

And seriously, do I LOOK LIKE A MALAY??!! It's so irritating when people ASSUME that I'm malay. Like FUCK NO! Then I get random stalkers at the freaking MRT station. Ugh, disgusting.

*Baby, I miss you. Get better soon, yeah? I know it's tough, but yeah. Aiyah, don't know how to say it ok?

2009-06-21T13:53:00.002+08:00

Singapore Flyer

So it was off to Singapore Flyer for Dom's commissioning ball. Fireworks in between dinner. Random bitchings. Singapore Flyer to end it off. Felt like I was bringing 3 kids to sit on the flyer. =P It was an interesting experience standing on the flyer.

Then off to Novena for desserts at Udders. The ice cream is just the bomb!

Phuture after that. Huiling joined us for some action.

Home and slept. Only to get disturbed by my mum in the morning "Eh you want to go to the Zoo?" Like HELLOO?? I want to sleep pleaseeee??

I start early tomorrow, cos of first aid classes. 830am. Like omggg, finally I get to see the early sun.

Photos are up on facebook. Thank you very much.

Big thank you to Dom for the lovely night. Thank you to Mervyn, Eileen, Russell and Shannon for the laughter and fun. :D

2009-06-15T13:17:00.002+08:00

ALOHA!

I know I haven't been blogging. Superwoman has certainly been busy.

There was China Gang Gathering. Linus & Clare's birthday celebration at St James, along with Desmond and Mike's farewell.

Work for 9 days straight.

Thankfully I ended early on Friday, at 945pm! Woohoo! And it was off to Cineleisure to meet Huiling for some supper. Back to my place for cookie making.

Saturday was Dom's commissioning parade. Certainly interesting to experience it. Photos and dinner. And Holland V after that. HAHA Huiling, I'm still not gonna tell you where we were!

Sunday was spent in town. 3 pairs of shoes. High tea at Carousel. Tiff & Co. where we saw John. Grocery shopping at Paragon. Sian, can imagine life with Huiling liao.

Random note, stories spread fast. HAHA

2009-06-03T02:38:00.001+08:00

Following a cue from Bobo Kah Wee, I decided to go google some stuff. HAHA

SIAN.

WHY _________ SO HANDSOME! *Heart melt*

Really heart melt to the maxxxxxx.

2009-06-01T13:02:00.002+08:00

Because it's JUNE

June is here, and it spells a helluva fun time! June is always the time for holidays, camps, sleepovers, parties, and it is certainly no different for me since I left TP.

2nd June, Tuesday - China gang meet up. :D

3rd June, Wednesday - LRM/CCM meet up at St James Powerhouse. A final farewell for the guys who are about to shave bald. But somehow, Huiling and I foresee more club nights.

13th June, Saturday - Dom's commissioning parade. And their commissioning party at Phuture. People who wanna come, please do feel free. Text me if you're coming yea? It's gonna be one crazy night.

14th June, Sunday - Carousel with Huiling. =D And maybe mahjong?

20th June, Saturday - Singapore Flyer! *HUMONGOUS GRIN* Finally I get a ride on the Flyer, even though I'll be in a gown, but it's the experience that counts!

Okay lah, that's all for now. But it might be changed.

Sunday was spent out with Dom for movie and dinner. We caught Monsters vs Aliens simply because we didn't want to watch first row for Night at the Museum 2. Monsters vs Aliens was simply a second choice. It was a cute and funny show, so it's a good choice for a movie. Stay til the end as well!

Walked around. And dinner was at Thai Express at Raffles City. Shared my brilliant plan, and it's gonna work out! We forgo Ben & Jerry's for dessert. :(

Took a train with him to Joo Kwon. Finally seeing the west side after gazillion and one years. And saw some water slide at Pioneer station. West side people, please explain. Thank you very much.

Time to go for work. Sian...

2009-05-26T12:05:00.002+08:00

It has been ages since I last blogged. HAHA

Since 15th May. Hmmm, that's a lot of days to recall. HAHA

Lunch with Dom on Sunday. Then it was Graduation Ceremony on Tuesday. Of which we felt it was better to show OUR LRM GRAD VIDEO, which would just totally rock the house! HAHA

K Box at E! Hub after the ceremony. Sing, laugh, eat. Cabbed home with Laura cos we were too sian to take bus back. HAHA

Wednesday was well spent at home sleeping. Out with Mum for dinner and to head to Robinsons. Dinner was at Ichiban Boshi, great food they had there. :) Met Nut and the cousins at Robinsons. And it was off to Raffles Place to meet Bobo for Club Night! Pictures are on facebook.

It was a fun night with the other LRM-ers and CCM-ers. And we shall continue this by heading to St James on 3rd June. WOOOHOOOOO!

The other days were spend working. Yawns, I'm really tired. Haha

Yesterday, I spend 1 hours talking to Matthias. August, August.

Sian, why my plant still not growing??!! Maybe I should go whine to Dom about it! HAHAHA!

Thursday, dinner with the cousins. And I wanna go watch Angels and Demons. ANYONE?? PLEASEE??? I'm begging here.

Sunday, plans with Dom for movie and dinner. :D

And it's time to head to work. SIAN....

2009-05-15T02:10:00.001+08:00

I thought that Lights Out meant that someone, like the officer, switches off the lights in the room.

Go ahead and laugh army guys.

2009-05-15T01:17:00.002+08:00

13 May 2009

A simple day. Lunch with the parents and their friends.

Foie Gras with Codfish was the bomb.

Marina Square with Huiling for a short time. Daniel Yam's new collection is smoking HOT! RED LEHHH!

Met Laura at Raffles City and walked over to Timbre. Pizza feast! And seafood platter!

Gossips and girl talks. And constant smses from D, even while he's outfield.

Walked over to Clarke Quay. Went into Bellini Grande and saw Kah Wee! HI BOBO! Sat there for a while watching people the ages of our parents clubbing. And imagine how it would be like if our parents did that too. Haha!

Arena was like uhhh, we didn't even go in. Rebel looked empty. So Zirca it was. Lychee Martinis, "mambo" style music (which sucks), Rebel, Lunar. Saw Evon there!

Music at Rebel was whatever. Left at 130am. Hurhur, but it was fun with the girls. As always.

Thank you to everyone for all the smses, fb messages, and cards. I really appreciate it.

Crazy D smsed me twice to wish me!

Shocking one was Yuenteck, from Thailand leh! And to think he could still say "I will not on my phone in Thailand, waste money only. So advance happy birthday." This said before he left at Spize. And look at what he did. So touching can? HAHA

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It has been an emotional ride for me, leading up to my birthday. I'm really grateful for having the girls, D, Karo and Chinyi around. bbbf David is a total ass who refuses to meet me. Whatever!

I'm afraid of the outcome, but I'm willing to take the risk. Make that sacrifice. Cos we only live life once, and I don't think I can let it slip by.

Fallen

2009-05-10T18:20:00.005+08:00

The beginning has been deleted due to some issues.

POINT TWO

When what you thought was passion, becomes a dread. =(

When the mere thought of it just wants to drive you to tears.

POINT THREE

When a birthday doesn't feel like a birthday. I have really really learnt a big lesson this year, and that being 20 SUCKS. What is 21 right now?

=(((

I need a big fat happy pill, starting with a D.

2009-05-09T14:34:00.001+08:00

Work is a bore.

Duty roster not out yet. And I'm off for the next 2 days. Hurhur

Oh shoot, I'm suppose to call Karo! HAHA

2009-05-06T11:08:00.002+08:00

How do you send love in an sms?

Work has been work. Nothing much to say.

Ok, I love tips! HAHA

And what's with everyone doing quizzes? Ok, I'm doing it as well, cos I'm just so darn bored.

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Saturday, Babe. ;)

2009-04-24T01:39:00.002+08:00

Stealing Glances

Happy Birthday Mellissa Seah! =D

20 already, do you feel old? HAHA

I hope you had a fun time at your party, and club night at Butter Factory! We shall head there next month as well yeah!

LRM-ers, you all are invited to Butter Factory, 20th May 2009. Catch ya there, after graduation ceremony, that is!

I've been reading blogs a lot these few days, knowing points of views from different people. It's a strange world out there.

My laptop refuses to start up properly, and now I'm on my bro's laptop. Sian... :((

I miss gazillion people right now. :(

And I'm starting to feel emo. This is bad....

2009-04-20T03:21:00.002+08:00

I think I should just go and be a private eye! HAHAHAHA it will definitely suit me, 110%!! So zai, SIAN!

Ladies night on Wed, I can't wait. 2 days, 2 days. Manu, REN! REALLY RENNNNN!

And to lovely Huiling, 2 more days to PINK BOOK OPERATION! Don't think about too many things for now alright? Wednesday will be here soon enough!

And don't forget our mahjong session in town yeah! My house is TOOO BIG ALREADY AHH.

LAURA LOVE! We stay so near, yet so far! WEDNESDAY TOO! =D

I need new photos for the wall, or ermm new photo frames. HINT HINT! Wah lau, I think I have hinted until it is rather OBVIOUS. But then again, I am pretty BHB.

Omggg, it's 3.27am! And I'm still up. I am turning nocturnal, this isn't good. It has been almost 1 week since I have started sleeping at 4am. =(((

Good night or should I say, good morning. It's time for La La Land.

2009-04-18T02:47:00.002+08:00

bbbf David sms me this yesterday, RE: Thursday.

"Why do you still need me?"

I'm still emo-ing about this. :((

Ah whatever lah.

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Kahwee's mini birthday celebration at Curry Flavour. Hope you liked the surprise! =D And it was nice catching up, talking/gossiping, the usual. HAHA

Then off to Funan to meet the parents to get my new camera! Sony T90, PINK! IT'S PINK LEHHH! REALLY DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN PRETTY, I SWEAR! Don't get jealous!

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And I should stop ermmm "flirting" with M.D. Really. Why must he be so darn charming??!!

2009-04-15T23:52:00.002+08:00

Girl's Day Out

A day out with Huiling started with me being late! HAHA I woke up late, thought I was able to rush down. And guess what! I spent 45 minutes talking to my dad about work. HURHUR!

Lunched at Bugis' NYDC. Off to Raffles Place for some business. One Fullerton to walk around, view Butter Factory from the outside. Walked to Clifford Pier to check it out. Saw Xavier there. Chilled out at Starbucks.

Talking about "Prince Charming". Taking a cab to One Fullerton, and from blue to yellow to mercs to Bentley! HAHAHA! It was simply hilarious. And I'm still laughing about it.

Walked to Esplanade Mall to use their toilet. Bussed home, and talks about Mahjong, and looking super chui without makeup and with glasses. SIAN! Can't wait for May to have our mahjong games.

I wanna go on the Singapore Flyer! Pretty please?

And Huiling, let's get our Pink Book soon! =D Haha, reminds me of Mean Girls with their Burn Book!